When I was married to my first wife, she decided to leave me. We were separated but living together for a month. I was a mess. I didn't know it at the time but she had bought a house behind my back and was waiting to close on it before moving out.
She finally did close on it one day. I went to work on a Wednesday morning and came home to a COMPLETEy empty house. It took my breathe away when I opened the front door.
She left me a mattress on the floor and single plastic cup. EVERYTHING else was gone, including my daughter.
I was going to end it all. I couldn't believe what my life had come to but I decided to lay down on that mattress (I remember I kept my coat on because I didn't even have blankets) and think about my life.
Eventually I moved out and SLOWLY rebuilt my life. About 4 months later, I met another woman and quickly fell in love with her. We started dating and I was happier than I had been in years! My ex found out and guess what happened...
SHE WENT INSANE WITH JEALOUSY!
SHE threatened to kill herself! She was miserable! SHe begged and pleaded and begged some more for me to take her back. It was too late. Id moved on.
To this day, she hints at getting back with me when I see her.
Things DO change Keefa. I promise you. It seems unbearable right now but if I could do it, you can do it.
Call your friends or family. Call the suicide hotline. Just make it through tonight my friend.
