Stay strong G. You don't have to know exactly how to name your feeling, it's probably a mix of a bunch of them. And they all hurt.
You're doing a great job, and are taking care of your family. A new TV sounds like a solid idea if you can afford it. Sorry this is hard, the first time I had to go food shopping after my W left was heartbreaking. It all gets better though in time.
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