New guy

[mbebos]

Hello all. Haven't been posting in a few days. I am finding that as I go through this process, I can't be on the forums too much or it triggers me mentally into anxiety. Got some medical news that explains a lot of what I have been going through over the last ten years. Much of which contributed to our fertility issues and other issues we had together. It is treatable. I am choosing not to tell her at this time. Maybe some day in the future under the right circumstances through our counselors, but for now, I am just going to get treatment.

In other news the W called this week during the middle of the day, and I was home not feeling well and didn't answer. Our normal routine is if there is an emergency, followup with a text that says "emergency" and I will leave my meeting or whatever I am doing. She didn't, so I waited until she was home from work, and texted. Well the good news is she has been going to IC, so that is a relief. The bad news is, whatever they got into was so deeply emotional, she left there a complete wreck, and almost got herself killed in a car accident. The car that was coming full speed into the intersection stopped inches from the drivers side door, headlights in her eyes. We call it a T Bone in our neck of the woods. She pulled over and was hysterically crying and she called me first. I wish I had answered because I was at home, and could have picked her up, she was only 5 minutes away.

I validated her feelings about the IC and near accident, but offered no advice or fixing. After a few minutes on the phone, she said, "I think from now on I am going to take a 10 minute breather in the car before I start to drive." I am extremely grateful she is ok. I have sent a text the next two morning to check and make sure she is OK, and then went back to not contacting.