And if you guys would have known me during the PA and the EA I was a blubbering mess. This time I'm better. That is absolutely true. But saying NO to him was not strength it was fear. I'm petrified of going through that again, so I said no. Cause let's be real...it was a sh!t "offer".
And I have been able to grow and be better and stronger via text and phone for the most part. And I just started the 180s. But again during calls and via text.
In person is a whole 'nother ball game. I didn't cry this time though like I did before over his being on his phone.
Last night he finally put his affair box aka phone, down.
And my kids were over the moon. He played with them and sat with them. We ate dinner with them and watched a movie with them too. He even helped me put them to bed. It was almost like before. Almost.
I'm proud that I kept walking away and STFU. My babies are worth it and they loved seeing him.
And after he put his phone down he wanted me to watch a new show he's been watching.
Then when I said it was getting late he started talking. A lot. LOL. Stories I've heard a hundred times before of his school days. About his parents. His escapades with his best friend.
Everytime I got up it was "where are you going".
We had a nice time. No arguing. He asked to sleep over. I said okay but on the couch. He laughed and said thats fine.
And then....
I went to my room and looked at my phone and I had 2 blocked calls. Omg. Flashback to his A big time!
I walked out and showed him. He said I don't know who that is. I haven't talked to her (ow).
It irked me that he automatically went there. Ow has called numerous times since she BDed and never blocked. She only called blocked before BD. And I never ever get blocked calls and they came in a little after midnight.
He again said he has no clue.
I went to bed sad. He knocked on my door and came in. He said he was sorry but he hasn't spoken to ow and "no one i know has your number". But he assumes no one will go through hia phone and if he isn't with me he takes his phone code off.( and no one he knows=the new girls he swears he hasn't met up with).
I said I feel like we can never spend time together without things like this happening but okay and then said I have to get some sleep.
He said "don't say that babe i swear I'm not doing anything". I just said. Okay XF good night.
I cried myself to sleep.
Oh during the night he also asked me again who I am using that blasted app with. He admitted he got it to talk to some of those girls but has stopped. Nope. Don't believe him. And I got a little snarky here and said "well I guess we both use it for our new friends" lol
Also he made it a point to tell me he probably couldn't make it here Friday or Saturday night. Shocked...not!
