Thanks for the post! I had to take time away from here for a bit. Sometimes, it does not make me feel very good to be on here too much.
In terms of it not being that long, I mean we were only married 2 years before BD, it has been over 7 months since now. But the other issue that I have been thinking of is history. Over the past 16 years or so, she has fired me 3 times and left me dangling in the wind a bunch of other times (hang out for weeks then nothing etc). I feel like I understand the difficulties we had, where I contributed to those and how I can improve myself (which I am doing). I just don't know if it would ever work with her. Another forum, basically told me to cut my losses months ago.
Would I be doing it to get a reaction? I don't think so, but I would need to think about it more. Here is the problem... if she showed up tomorrow and wanted to work on things, showed true remorse and agreed to certain conditions, yes of course I would work on it. But then what are the chances of this happening again given the history? It could be even worse next time. I have never given anyone else a chance because she always had my attention. She gave plenty of others a chance. Maybe it is time for someone else.
I am not going to do anything today or tomorrow. She will have to contact me about her tax documents eventually. I'll probably wait until at least that point.
I am sorry for ranting.. this is not usually like me but thanks for listening
