V is for Vanilla 27

[Vanilla]

Sometimes I have no idea why I feel fearful sad and i just able to cope.

This evening for no reason I struggle.

I cry and am consumed with deep unhappiness that I don't want; it seems not specific really and very unfocused.

The flashbacks are pretty scary, yes I know it isn't really happening and I am unclear what to do to stop it so all I camn do is to just let it pass like flotsam and jetsam.

I would like it stopped, I have asked my higher power and I guess I still have things to learn.

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