WW, My Addiction, Patience, and HOPE Part II

[trumpet]

Lots to ponder. Thanks Sandi.
If I truly detach, I won't care about her not showing her phone to me. If we want a relationship, she'll want to be transparent, like I am.
So, how do I find my happy? I have to find my happy place.

Being neighborly without deep conversation. Not caring if she wants to engage fixing us, even if we have a 3 month time limit. I have to keep telling myself she was the one who wanted the divorce, for years she talked about it. She filed. She served me. She did the hold on the divorce. She hates me (supposedly). She gets angry at me all the time.

I feel lonely sometimes. I Want to see her forgive me. I Want to have a physical and emotional relationship with someone. Lots of I's in there. This journey seems to always come back to me and how I live my life, how I respond to adversity. I can control my actions. Not hers. I need to focus on how I act, and not expect personal fulfillment from an uncaring wife.