Lonely Hearts Club V

[shotgun]

Ugh. Huge fight on the phone. Did get a few things off of my chest and feel much better having done that. Funny that she sees no wrong in leaving a guy fighting cancer. It does say something about her though. There is a reason why I have not wanted to speak with her on the phone and my worst fears played out. I know that I can only speak to her through text because it takes a lot of the emotion out of it. I just want this nightmare to end. Will it ever? I have to get over this because it is affecting my son. He needs to see me enjoying life and fighting to get healthy. Physically as well as mentally. Perhaps this is a tipping point for me and the pendulum is going to go back in the other direction. Have a good day all and say a prayer for me.