Butterec the beginning is always the hard part. Trust me my friend. But there is light after the tunnel. I always thought there was no light and really thought my world was coming to an end. I know it's better said than done. Get out of the house , explore! Have some fun here and there. Even though at times when you go out , you will always remember your wife and will tell yourself " my wife would love to be here". The emotional roller coaster is real. You will think you are at the top and everything is ok ,but next day it will feel like the first day.
Keep you head up, love yourself first. WW being a cold hearted woman is normal right now. The fog is thick. I know it feels impossible.
