My heart is beating about a mile a minute

[holdingon]

The "D" word is your wife's safety net for when she's frustrated by something and doesn't know how to deal with it rationally. Let it roll off you shoulders

Thanks T2... this is really the truth, but hadn't thought about it until you said it.

HOW COULD I LET IT COME TO THIS!

What the heck does this mean? HOW DID YOU let it come to this??? Honey, you didn't. You did the best you knew how, now you will do better. Please don't blame yourself, move forward. Work on you, be busy, keep reading.