Hi Anjo. Good to see you post , I have to agree with some of the other posters , it does seems to me that XH is coming out of the fog or at least the fog is thinning.
I think we are very alike and we need WAS to spell it out but will they ever? Can they ever ? You keep making it clear to him that you accept his choice and your living your life , which is as it should be BUT its also showing him the door is shut.
Pink , you are afraid of getting hurt again and I certainly don't want that to happen but I think opening the door a small bit and seeing what happens wouldn't risk to much. Small things like the game might be opening the door a tiny bit.
Whatever you choose , we will support you IMHO you love H so I would advise you take the small risk and open the door. He made a huge mistake and hurt your whole family but sadly mistakes happen.
Just my pennies worth Anjo You deserve happiness and you will get it
