Ive had a couple people tell me to start a new thread so here it is.
I woke up with anxiety today. I have felt pretty decent not seeing the WAH since monday. I know I will see him today and have a mix of butterflies and wanting to vomit from stress.
I am hoping today goes good. I hope he calls-texts before he comes over because I need to get some house stuff done before I can leave and I dont want to spend a bunch of time at the house like always. Trying to 180 how much time we spend together and 180 the love.
Some days its 10-12 plus hours together like a happy family. Hugs, flirting, chasing me around,picking me up, kissing on me. I thought it was good progress until he told me it meant nothing, he just wants to be friends and even told his parents we are getting a D. It is going to SUCK for me inside to have to put my bubble up and boundaries.
I cant be his best friend and wife if he still wants the D and tells people now we are getting one. Wish me luck, I will need it really bad.
