REALLY trying to detach...but GALing regardless!#3

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NYGal.....you know we love you. I. Hope you never think I'm picking on you. I joke around with you to try to take your mind off of things sometimes, but I really do care about you and would never want to hurt you. I know that your mind starts running away with you and you feel powerless to stop it, then want to act on the fear. I do the EXACT same thing! That's why I went to H's house the last time. I went to IC and listened to him tell me how H doesn't love me, we will never work out, etc. and I got so panicked that I broke NC and went straight over there because I was scared that he would suddenly forget that he DOES love me. That was a HUGE mistake and I wish I had just calmed down and not trusted my judgement during that panic and fear. Sigh...... Woulda, coulda, shoulda.... Guess I can't change my act of stupidity, but I do try to help you so you don't follow in my footsteps. Oftentimes I later find I'm walking the wrong way on a one way street!

And completely unrelated.....I'm wondering if Judy is okay. She hasn't been on in a few days. I hope she's doing okay.