2times2many, Thank you. It is hard isn't it? I honestly don't know at this point what it is that I want to do anymore. I know I don't want to spend the rest of my life waiting for a "normal" non-MLC relationship. I've already invested over 30 years of my life and he has sucked me dry of my emotions and my strength. I don't hate him, I pity him. I feel sad for him that he is missing out on having a relationship with his really awesome kids because he is so into himself. I learned a long time ago that you can't force people to change, and if he has returned to his MLC there is nothing I can do to speed things along. He made so many promises after he came home. He was gone for 3 years. I believed everything he said. I welcomed him back and didn't put any conditions on him. And yet here I am again.....
