I suspect she is planning an affair via whatsapp. She sleeps with her phone under her pillow. Should I attempt to snoop? It's killing me but I need to know the truth and know that she will not be honest about it.
In 2010 we separated for a year and she had two affairs. The first happened after a month of me moving out. She continued to flirt online and like men to give her attention.
After doing a 180 she started to gain interest in me and realized that another man was not going to make her happy and believed that it was better the devil you know so took me back.
This time with the divorce it looks terminal. I know I have to get a life but I am struggling to detach especially as we are still living together. I feel hooked on her like a drug. She keeps trying to push me out of the door with the proposal of remortgaging the house and releasing money for me to pay for an apartment. She is so desperate to get me out and I fear it is possibly because she has other interests. If she needed to work on the hurt, surely she doesn't need me out of sight so quickly?
I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
