I want you to know that you aren't alone and there have been others that have returned after reconciling for a while. Reconciling, working on a new marriage, as well as continuing to work on you takes a lot of hard work and sometimes, we all tend to forget that after reconciliation, it's a new marriage and we can't fall back into old ways.
So, what have you been up to since you posted here previously? I did read that you went back to school. I'm very pleased that you did that. What are your goals for the next year? If you don't have any, let's start putting pen to paper and come up w/a few.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.