Letting go, finally

[JGuy]

I thought when I first read it your post on self-validation was spot on...but to your point I hesitated to say too much because the whole point is you don't need my support on that. For what it's worth, you have it.

And the best part is as you get better at self-validating, you will be more secure, and less injured by misunderstandings of others around you. Then you will be able to hear others voices without feeling threatened, because you will be whole and healthy. Sometimes you will agree with those voices, sometimes you won't, but my guess is that you will feel every bit as sensitive in terms of tuned in, but not as sensitive in terms of uncomfortable. Then you can really be at your best.

What you described the other night is pretty cool. A bit of a trip. Once in a while we are shown glimpses of our higher self, of the universe, of something beyond ourselves. That's a nice reminder, and a nice place to visit, but don't be discouraged that we don't get to live there. The light of God is filtered through broken beings, and while it's in us, don't feel bad it doesn't all shine through. We do the best we can, and it's all good.

Thanks, Zeus! It's ridiculous how hard self-validation is for me, so as I'm working on it, I certainly won't mind accepting any external validation I can get.

Over the past 2 days as I reflect on this, it is all clicking and making more and more sense. I just visited with friends for dinner tonight. They are married and are the type of couple who try their best to work through their issues consciously together. They have been a good source of support. As I was telling them about these latest realizations about myself in regard to self-validation, they both lit up and admitted they had the exact same dynamic. They ended up really appreciating what I told them and thought it could help them too. So... I'm even getting validation that it's normal to have issues with self-validation!