Thank you so much for your post. I have read it over at least 3-4 times I hope that I can be like you. This is my goal. I would love to be a happier, better, me.
I wish I knew what was going on inside my WAH brain. I wish I knew how to help him and be there for him even though he is putting me through this. I have to remember What you said that its his crisis and it will take as long as he needs to deal with it.
I will Try to be gentle on myself and my WAH. I get caught up in worrying if What I'm doing will push him away even more even though I NEED to focus on myself.
I kind of feel the same way. That I'm lost and not sure of who I a.m. anymore and it scares me.
I love the advice you have me for How you Did things. I do know losing weight and looking good is all for him. 20% makes me feel good but I'm always worried he will loose his attraction to me. He still wants my physically and tells me Im very pretty..I Just wish he wanted me emotionally still.
I do need to let go of his loco mode. Hes hot then cold, does one thing then reminds me hes still leaving. It breaks my heart. I know this is why I have to detach and have boundaries. To protect my own heart and self worth.
Yes I plan on trying to meet up and talk to some L asap just so I'm not in the dark as much. I need to be prepared even though it hurts.
I will look into all the types of books you have mentioned. I will start slow and try to get some more knowledge so I'm not as lost.
I have a book the everyday I write what happened, not a long story but if he spends the night. If he sees the kids. If he gives me money and how much. Keep track of that stuff. I will make sure I have copies of important papers that I can get ahold of.
You gave me a lot of homework and things to work on and look into. Thank you again. Hope to hear from you soon.
