Day by Day..Hour by Hour 3

[Rain75]

So I had another talk with XF. Don't worry nothing like the last one. He gave me the update on his mom which, thankfully, is better than we were led to believe. So thank God for that.

Also, and this is where I was left a little angry, about his plans. How he is going to work on himself. He is actively seeking a new position in his field because he doesn't make enough. That he is looking to fix and reestablish his credit. And lastly he is going for a license to further his carreer and up his salary and he will be moving into a new place.

Why does this upset me?

He is suddenly obsessed with making money and if the last check of his transactions is the dictator...then its simply to be able to better finance his cam girls. (Ive stopped checking)

So this is his primary motivation with pissed me off. Also the license and the job change are things I've encouraged for years. As well as his credit, which I helped get off the ground by budgeting to an inch of crazy so that he could start paying debts. But he was always happy floating along.

And I begged for him to move. Never wanted to hear it. Now he is very excited about the idea. Really?? Now? Ugh

But....but, I said none of that to him. I just told him that it all sounds great and that I am confident he can do it all.

He asked me about my plans. I didn't say a word about my weightloss plan because it's none of his beeswax.

Almost told him that I have been looking at X city for a possible move. But he may have taken it as me baiting him to change his mind and "give in" to me...as in..well we will be moving unless you man up! And that isn't the case. It's a nice place, the cost of living is cheaper and I have a childhood friend there. (it's a she) And if he isn't going to be a steady and real part of the kids lives then I really don't see any positives for staying. Although I will try to give this time and see if he steps up for them.

And I ended up not telling him anything besides my writing again and asking him to please consider a firm schedule with the kids and remember to make time for them when he is juggling all of these balls in the air.

He took that as an attack. So ended up saying the kids are the most important thing to him and that he would like to see them but I can't control my mouth.

I SO wanted to tell him " well since you've given me a horrible offer of continued As which we both know I'd never accept you can see them every flipping day and I'll be OUT on the hunt for a faithful man!" lol

I didn't.

I just said. Well things are different now. You can see them here until you get your new place. I won't chase you out or argue. There no reason to.

He doesn't want to hear me. (mind reading? Yep...but I don't think I am wrong) he wants to keep it the way it is. Staying away makes chasing tail and hours with the cam girls very easy. Scheduled visits don't work well with that. Like, at all.

That's his choice. I extended the invitation for him to see them. Even when I'd rather not see him. It's all I can do.