She feels that I neglected her and shared no intimacy which is true. I felt paralized in approaching her as she did nothing to enhance our intimacy either. We were both tired in the evenings and hardly ever spent quality time together. The porn became a fantasy of what could be betweeen us but never materialised.
She bas continued to vent her frustration over me not leaving. She says I should be a man and not want to see my wife suffering like this. She says she needs to work through the pain that I have caused her. She says that she believes that my aim is to go away, cure my self and be a better man and then expect to just turn up one day and be part of the family again. She thinks everything is about me as usual and I should have the integrity to hold my hands up for what I have done and walk out of the door.
She approached me with a proposal for our living arrangements. She wants to release money invested in the house to allow me to find somehere to live. I had agreed to pay my share of the mortgage to keep the children at home and have our house in the event of a reconciliation. She still wants to pursue the divorce and I know that my rights may affected if I leave but staying around in this toxic atmosphere is not helping as she is not interested in me and hates me being under her feet.
If I give her space and move out could that help the relationship in the long run? I'm so confused as I want us to save the marriage but she is dead set on divorce and moving on.
I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
