Mavrick, I'm new to following your sitch so forgive me for not knowing the back story. I would recommend that you start posting at a minimum 3-4 times a week. I think it would help you quite a bit.
You registered 4/16/15, yet from what I can see you're still in very early stages of grieving. Mostly denial. You seem to think your WAW is going through a faze and will snap out of the fog and see God's light. I don't believe that is helping you. It's keeping you stuck, it's keeping you clinging to WAW. And that's interfering with both your journey and hers.
I have been on here for a while now, and I've never once seen someone write "I know this wasn't what DB would advise" followed by a positive outcome. I think your speech at the courthouse flowed from a place of denial, still thinking that you can avoid this loss. The only result is that, as DB says, it forces WAW to resolve herself to keep moving away.
You talk about praying for your marriage. I would really like to see you praying that God's will be done, not yours, and that your faith is strengthened to know that you will thrive whatever God has in store for you. Read my last post on unconditional happiness (on my new thread).
I'm not sure if your WAW will come back or not. Some do. Many don't. I just want you to focus on your journey. It will do wonders for you whatever the future may hold.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15