Hola Rouky! I'm sorry that I haven't responded to you. I've been feeling sorry for myself lately. I had to read some of your posts this morning just to get myself moving. You are so amazing and inspirational that I always draw strength from your words. I have struggled a bit with the news that STBXW is taking S13 around OM now. And then she tells me that they aren't in a relationship. S13 has a recital that I will have to be in the same room as XW. The image of her face makes me want to vomit right now. I just do not want to see her. Is that anger?
Don't give up on me Rouky. I'll pick myself up and get out of this funk. I have a couple of GAL activities planned that hopefully will get me going the right direction again. The weather is starting to improve a little here as well and the days are getting longer. I'm sleeping well and my workouts are going great. My body is finally starting to respond in a way that I am used to. I have put on weight and I look fantastic naked! It has been scary to see myself so thin and with bones protruding through my skin. In spite of cramming three to four thousand calories down my throat every day I was just not gaining any weight. Now that I am I am starting to eat more healthy. Trying to eat the right foods and doing the right things. Also my patience is returning somewhat. I have been the most patient person for my whole life and not having any for the last year has been frustrating.
OK Rouky I have stopped my whining! Tell me how your week has been so far and what exciting things you will do this weekend. Are you going dancing or meeting with some exciting people? If I can see you having fun it will encourage me to do something with myself. I'm trying to find a place to watch The Super Bowl. Wish you could watch it with me. I'll bet that you have some amazing finger food that would go perfectly with watching a game. If I am alone I will warm up some cheese sticks and will have shrimp cocktail. Of course if you were here I would do something more impressive! Te amo Rouky.
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
