I'm an avid reader of all your posts. I don't agree entirely with them all but they are soulful and thought provoking and make me question everything I am doing.
I envy your relationship with your kids, they are the same age as mine, 11 and 8. But at the same time it inspires me to get to that same level, of understanding, love, and closeness with them both.
In terms of other relationships and women, yes I have looked at dating sites, mainly to try to regain some self confidence, that I won't be 'left on the shelf'.
I am 50 in a few months, you are 36, you have more time. I know this is a stupid way to look at it, and I also know that most likely I will date a person damaged by separation and divorce - in fact 100% sure.
I has always had my W's beauty on a pedestal, in fact she is more beautiful now at 46 than when I first met her at 32 - why? She dresses better, is slimmer, has better hair and has all those modern makeup devices that didn't exist 15 years ago... - false eyelashes, gravity defying dresses, unbelievable shoes, false tans, breasts - nicer teeth - ok it's all superficial but men are visual creatures.
Just looking at these sites has shown that there are women out there who are just as attractive as my wife and probably just as damaged as me.
Yes I will take my time but I guess I am now only 3/4 months from D and 3 months from 50
Me49 W45 T15 M13 S11 S8 BD 11/15/11 & 3/27/12 Moved out 4/9/12 Moved back 4/23/12 W working on US 5/20/12 Now Piecing! May-Oct14 drifting Dec 14 W agrees to more QT BD Oct15 ILYBINILWY W filed 1/25/16
