Hey guys, thanks for stopping by. I went to IC today. It felt good to talk. I will continue to plan for one possible future while I live in the here and now. Roiste, I'll move from the East Coast to the Rockies. I will miss my kids, they can live with me or visit as long as they want. They will be adults with their own lives. I will miss them. I will miss my wife. Not all stories have happy endings.
My negative feelings and frustration were beginning to affect my mood at home. I want to be careful to not let these negative emotions affect my behavior. I am better then that. I will strive to remain positive and pleasant. It will not be easy. Her actions hurt me sometimes but I can do this. It is very important to me to have my wife choose to divorce me because she decides she wants it and not divorce me because of my behaviors. I will now make a conscience effort to be positive and validating when ever I conversing with her.
