Extremely confused

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You are in amazing hands with the people already in this thread, keefa. Make sure you truly reflect and spend time thinking on the points that are made. I don't want to hijack too much, only put in a couple thoughts after reading your sitch.

You are grieving now. It [censored]. There's no other way to put it. However, you have some great things to help you move forward. When your boys are around, put all of yourself into them. At the end of the day, you will always be their dad. They deserve the best of you each and every moment you are with them. Keep the time about them and do not let WAW talk leak into it. Tell them you understand, love them, and will always do your best for them.

Same for that pooch of your's. I know that during my misery time, my dogs somehow knew I was hurting and banded together to me. They helped me through those tough times when I was alone in the home.

Finally, detaching is a b1tch. I remember someone telling me that the WAW is ahead of the detaching game when they leave. However, you have the gift of being able to improve YOU! The end results, so long as you put in the work, are worth it. Set your goals, no matter how small, and work them. Pour all of yourself into them. You can make it.