Hi Rouky, thank you so much for checking on me! I don't know what went on yesterday with posting but yours and Zues' posts weren't there when I typed mine but now they are!?!?! I love your idea of writing down what I actually like about alien H. I just tried to do that and actually could only think of one thing I like about him right now . That's pretty tough to realise!
You also wrote exactly how I feel too. I'm so scared about being a single Mum in my early forties. I feel like this is it for me 'love' wise. I feel like I will be alone now (romantically) for the rest of my life. It makes me so sad. That's the thing about someone D you. It's not just the now, it's the future that was fantasised about in your head. The imaginations of looking after grandchildren, our children's wedding days, holidays and cruises together once the children have left home. It is all gone.
. That's pretty tough to realise!