WW, My Addiction, Patience, and HOPE Part II

[trumpet]

Sandi,

Thank you. She knows the porn is no longer a part of me, but I've told her I could always fall, and it would be something I need to tell her when it happens. It hasn't so far, and she knows that. She sees the effort. She hasn't needed to check up on me, which is a little strange, but also, if she doesn't feel anything for me, who cares? Once she feels love for me, the accountability factor will rise.

Funny you speak about that. If she wants to rug sweep the PA/EA we can rug sweep the porn addiction, and never mention it again, right? If I'm supposed to never hurt from the PA/EA, she shouldn't hurt from the porn addiction?

Her brain still doesn't fire the neurons in the correct order sometimes. Still trying to justify what she did. I justified what I did for 15 freaking years. I need to continue to give her time.

By the way, the conversations we have about the R are started by her now. I typically steer that barge away from the bridge. No need to sink the cargo!