Merrick--That thought process didn't even occur to me...
However, I don't know what makes him tick. He's not a really complicated person, though.
I'll think about this more, though.
Pam, yes, those were all really positive things. I think he values me, our friendship and our past. I think he actually loves me to the best ability he can--at least right now.
I'm not getting rid of him.
I still have the appts with MC next week and at the end of the month. I plan on heading there anyway. I DO hope that Mr. Wonderful feels motivated by something to at least come see what reconciliation really looks like.
I don't plan on leading the show or forcing him to do something he doesn't want to do. He has to believe this, though. Will he? Won't he? I really don't know right now.
Time will tell.
But this newfound awareness just gives me something concrete to work with when making any decisions down the line.
I don't want him to be somebody he doesn't want to be to love me. At the same time, I am who I am as well.
If I had the chance to repeat a question I asked of him right after he left, I would: "When you asked me to marry you, why did you feel that I was the girl you couldn't live without? And why has that changed?"
Who wants me to play the $64M dollar question?
BTW, you saw D7 at her best! She lacked energy and enthusiasm... which is not her M.O. This kid is usually all over the place. She pulled the elevator alarm at the library yesterday, which made for some really good fun.... I'm trying hard not to laugh at your description of her being well behaved
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
