As I've said before, we are so similar...our H's are very similar. What Zues is telling you is very, very true. We cannot control this situation. We have to let go, or we will be consumed by anger, despair and fear. We will cease to function in a mentally healthy way. I know this because I let it happen...again. And I sort of thought I was strong enough to handle it.
Hi Ciluzen, it's great to hear from you. I know what you are saying is true, I can feel myself slipping into some terrible despair too.
Originally Posted By: Ciluzen
At this point I've had my H file after what I thought were some good interactions. As much as I tried not to, I grew hopeful and had those lovely expectations of him changing his mind. After receiving my papers, I hit a lower low than ever before. I plummeted. And, because he still cares, he felt the need to call me so I begged and pleaded, defended and explained. Not as strong as I thought, eh?
Oh Ciluzen, I'm so, so sorry. That is awful. It is so hard to go dark too, I know. I just wish I could close my eyes, wake up and it all have been a bad dream.
Originally Posted By: Ciluzen
Let him go, IP. Its probably the only hope.
This last line has me sobbing buckets and buckets of tears. I can't do it. I love him so much and I can't stand all of these empty minutes that are turning into empty days and months.
