Okay, good to hear you are pursuing more counseling.
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I could go to my mums I just do not know how this will make me happy
Are you really listening? At the moment it is not about something making you happy! It is about keeping you out of a possible volatile situation. It is about putting space between you and the W. It is about protecting yourself, Ghost. What do you think I've been saying? I know that I have repeated that staying at your mom's is not the same as moving in with her.
Btw, just curious why you refer to it as being your mom's home? You rarely refer to it as your parents' home.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!