All is as well as can be expected in my corner of the universe. I don't have anything to say that I haven't said already. I will keep trying although I noticed yesterday I am quiet, sullen, not upbeat, speech is formal and only about household or kid things.
This is what has to be done for my son but I feel like I am doing time. My wife and I are doing the right thing for him but this is not changing anything between us. I kidding myself if I think she is coming back to me. Yesterday in front of me, my wife told my daughter, that she was making my daughter her emergency contact person. I can't believe how far I've fallen. That really hurt and still does.
I will continue to do the right thing. I have my activities, so PMA is my area of focus. I will try to have a PMA.
I must remember to stay in the present moment. This is where my fulfillment lies. I am seeking to be happy in the future and the future never arrives. I keep trying to solve this problem and alone I don't have the power to. I must drop the problem of saving this marriage and enjoy now. I will be attentive to present moment and enjoy now. If I can do this my PMA will follow. Peace
