Skanky B...lol...that made me laugh MB. Thanks for your words. I can't sleep. Almost drove over there. Because I want to. Also because condoms don't just walk away and he keeps crying innocent. He says he is home every night! I know if I drive there right now he won't be home and I kind of feel like it will help me keep my resolve. But I'm struggling and fighting myself NOT to go.
MB I totally get where you're coming from. That you don't want to let go. In my past I was cheated on. And I walked away without a second thought and never looked back. Why the F is it so hard with him!!!
And all my life I have had the personality that once I move on, once I'm "done" there is zero chance of getting me to change my mind. My first real love cheated and I dropped him like a bad habit. I cried but never went back. He is still in love with me. And I wouldn't touch him for anything.
So I get scared. If he wakes up and grows up that I won't care one little bit. And that would make me so sad. For us yes, but more so for our kids.
But like you said...they are forcing us to play this hand. So really, if I get to that point he will have no one to blame but himself. I mean he will blame me (he already is) but he would be the one to believe that.
