Lonely Hearts Club V

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Thank you Rouky. Nothing means more to me than for someone to tell me that they are praying for me. I so admire your strength and your ability to carry on in spite of such pain. Your ability to find positives in all of this is amazing. We have walked this path together but I feel like you are handling it better than I. One thing that I will say is that I am thankful for having come here and had the good fortune to meet you. God only knows what life will bring but you will be in my thoughts until the day I die. I do have moments where I am excited about the future. I just wish that I had more. I think that I will be unable to properly process everything until the divorce is final. I am having moments now where I am upset about the passing of my grandmother. I did everything for her for fifteen years and I think that I have been too sick to properly grieve her death. It has been so much to deal with.

So I will spend the rest of the evening thinking about you Rouky and how pretty you are and how smart and fun! I'm still going to make you awful waffles and serve them to you with hot cocoa some day. I'm thinking that I will get some chickens and start getting my own fresh eggs. Right now I am buying them from a guy at work who raises them. I do eggs pretty well and saute' mushrooms and fry sausage. Maybe I'll make you an omelet. Grilled salmon for lunch with steamed broccoli with cheddar cheese and roasted red potatoes. Probably we'll take a nap and then maybe go for a walk. You have succeeded in making me smile once again and I am so thankful! Don't give up on me and I will keep fighting. God bless you my dear Rouky.