V is for Vanilla 27

[Vanilla]

PP

There used to be a saying in my day.....

A little seduction and a specific assumption such as "How would you like your eggs in the morning"

Response "unfertilised"

So being an old bird the term laying eggs seems more appropriate.

A little cryptic and I could. Don't resist being punny.

Thank you PP, I have been a little fearful of a sweet cycle other posters here with abuse sitches like Zelda, Msd, And Anc have been tested with sweet cycles, I have never been tested. I am completely NC and dark.I hide behind my L. I am still afraid of WH and afraid I will be weak. I do not want to ever be abused like that again.

Gg sitch is more like mine with a WH who doesn't want to proceed D.

I don't get it he is wayward, does not want me, wants out, has an OW he says he is crazy about, rich and he says he is a gigglo. So why not move on, why hold back? I want D too, very much. I am comfortable he is in another country. I will be happy he is gone. I want him gone and never to know anything more about him. Nothing zip and ear plugs.

Sometimes I have to play the rant recordings to know it's real. I reread my early threads and it's me that needed sense.

It does mean that I have never truly put my own role into reality. I vascilate between taking all the blame and fear of WH. PTSD crops up from nowhere sometimes.

Thank you for your help and support PP. I think mine is a long DB journey. I have been on my journey for more than 2 years. And yes, I am a WAW and ultimately an LBS who walked away from an abuse sitch.

I am still afraid and I believe I have reason.

V