Reading your latest posts it seems we are thinking and feeling the same kinda way, so its comforting to know its not just me.
Its funny you and HaWho talking about the change in your h attitude to ageing. I see that too - when I saw my h not long after he left he was into wearing shirts (he hated shirts, they remind him of work and ironing lol) designer jeans and he was wearing cologne. Now he has grown a beard and jokes about the grey, his bald spot and big belly (result of all the takeaways and eating out with ow lol). He went full on into trying out all sorts of things to find what he "likes", including a relationship and got himself into debt finding that he enjoys everything he did pre bd, just would like to do it more often - go to watch rugby, car events, catching up with mates.
It seems that they go full circle, learning along the way that what they had was actually good and it just needed tweeking to make it great -
I like your dream - you never know, it may be the universe or your guides telling you to hang on in there - its a topic that has recently been talked about on my thread ! Whist its not known why we actually dream, its said its a way of our subconscious processing and within our dreams could be the answers to questions we have.
Your h is needing his time and space to become whole, to be comfortable with who he is, its a journey of discovery and acceptance - acceptance is the hardest part. If he decides he wants to be in your life romantically again I am sure you would prefer him to be a balanced healthy partner and not the confused jumble he is currently.
For you, wow, you sound in a good place, knowing that you will be fine either way, enjoying your independence. Within your m you lost a piece of yourself, so now you have found it again and like the feeling of being you, you can take that forward into the future, with the lesson learnt of not to allow yourself yo get lost within a r again. I think that is what a lot of us have learnt through this process and will go forward much stronger, happier, healthier .....and wiser ...individuals.
Stay true to yourself and you can't go wrong. You keep me going, I don't feel alone on this endurance marathon (which I wish I had know about in advance so could have trained for lol)
