After your actions with trying to stop her leaving, I am concerned that the longer you put off getting out of there, it is something very bad waiting to happen.
Look, you don't have to move in with your mother. Just go stay with her.
Does your mother have any idea what mind of emotional/mental shape you are in right now? Does she know the extent of fear in being alone? Did she abandon you when you were a baby? Have you ever talked to her about your fear?
Now let me ask you if your W knows how afraid you are?
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
