Time for a new direction

[mleigh4]

Hey Hawho,

My H likes to play like a boy, but works hard as a man. The last year prior to Bday, he became very aware of his aging. He hurt his arm really bad wakeboarding and I believe that was an eye opener for him. He was dying his goatee and clipping off all the grey hairs he couldn't get. He started clipping grey hairs on his chest, then starting trimming it down real short. He had a real hard time with losing his hair and started shaving that real short as well. He spent more time grooming than I did. I kept telling him he was getting more handsome, but wasn't enough I guess.

At Bday, he started wearing younger looking clothes and wearing cologne. He chose to hang out with younger single guys instead of his married friends. He was going to concerts and bike rallies, car shows...things he never showed interest in before and went out a lot during the workweek. He was staying out until 3 am every weekend.

At this time, when I see him, he is back to wearing his normal style clothes. He has let his goatee and shaved head go completely gray. I never smell cologne on him or in his truck. He has told me when he does not have S, he just works late. His jeep does not look like it has moved from its spot since he has been in his place. The boat has been sitting at FIL storage for 2 years. Seems he got that out of his system. His world seems to be all about work, it is all he talks about.

It is sad that this is our reality. But we have learned to make our lives what we want it to be. The only thing I really miss is travelling with a companion. I loved planning Caribbean vacations and seeing new places. I suppose I could do these alone, but doesn't sound as fun. I can do with son, but might be better when he is a little older. I need that crystal clear warm water!!

It seems your H has also played out his youth? It's nice to hear he seems to be accepting his age lately. It's not so bad if you take care of yourself and keep your spirit young, you know!!??

Had a dream a couple of nights ago that I came home to H having left me several bunches of flowers around the house. He also was here with H and was very apologetic for our sitch.

So not much to update here. Having a low key weekend with S. I picked him up from H this morning. H was saddened by my news of a co-worker and friend I was close to several years back who passed away yesterday. She simply didn't wake up, only 44 years old, happily married with a 6 year old daughter. They think it may be from a fall a couple months ago where she hit her head. I was surprised H remembered that we had gone to her wedding.

Had a work function last night. I hate having to get dressed up, but I enjoyed good company, good food and good wine.

Got up and walked dog for a 2 mile walk before heading to pick up S this morning. I am feeling very blessed for my good health, son and fur babies right now.