Hi Irish, I'm sorry to hear you received D papers. It's not a nice experience, but it sounds as though you are handling things as well as can be expected.
It's weird thing about your W just deciding she didn't want to be a Mum anymore. It's like - umm, it's a little late for that Hun! Of course, my H was just the opposite, decided he desperately wants to be a Dad again (this time full time.)
As others have said, your W clearly has some regrets, but not enough to do anything useful about them. That's very much a theme on this forum I think. It really takes a lot of pain and fear for the MLCer to start making some useful progress. Not a nice place to be for sure.
Take care my friend and do a) what is best for you and yours, and b) act in a way you'll look back on in years to come and have no regrets.
Xx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus