Thanks Rain. I was owning it, and sow did look like a poor substitute for me. What is W thinking? But bottom line I'm still here in this little room alone and missing my W and my life. With a headache unable to sleep. I'm feeling pretty sorry for myself right now. I can't even think what to write here, and usually this helps me feel better. Such a mix of emotions. In November and December I was just spinning. Thinking if I could just say the right thing or do the right thing I'd get what I want. But I didn't get what I want. On Monday, when W came by, I had great hope. Now I don't know. Nothing has changed, just my mood. I'm glad sow wasn't sitting with W and our friends. When I saw her she was alone. But for all I know she's in my bed right now. I want to call W but I won't. It's the middle of the night and there's nothing to say. The weekends are so hard. This all is so hard. I'm sick of feeling this way. I'm sick of crying and feeling miserable. Even GAL just gets me through moments. I still feel empty.
W called again before I left work BTW. With another inane house question. At least I ended the call quickly. WTH???
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
