Darlin I know what you mean, but ...
BIG BIG BUT here

This is business. You have absolutely NO idea what the future holds for you or what your future financial needs will be. My lawyer said something interesting in our first meeting: the spouse who started the divorce should wind up a little less off than the lbs. no one wins everything but that is how the court usually goes here in the states anyway.

H wanted this, why should you foot the bill?

Take care of yourself first. The rest will fall into place.

Hope I haven't overstepped.

sending {{{hugs}}} and much love

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver