Walked into the arena, decided to do a loop on the concourse. There was the sow. We passed each other. Caught each other's eye. She looked like sh!t. I swear, she did not look good. Then my friend and I stopped and we're looking over the arena, and up behind me comes W. She pats me on the shoulder and continues walking. Friend and I head back around, and there is sow sitting high up in all her ugly a$$ glory. Frizzy mouse brown hair. I swear, Wonka, I was rocking the leather jacket, cool scarf, black boots, curly hair, stylin'. So I go down the aisle, catch sow's eye and glare, and she actually tries a little wave. I kept on, right down to court side and sat with friends in chairs right on the floor. ( I still have my 'family of athletic department staff pass'.) Hugged friends, laughed, like I owned the place. W is sitting up in the stands opposite me. Sow is who knows where. I never saw her again. She may have left. Game was awful. AND I was self- conscious the whole time. Friend and I left early, went out for a beer and we both cried over our lost loves. All in all, quite the pitiful evening actually. I sincerely hate this drama. I just want my old life back and I miss my W so much. Screamed profane words all the way home in my car. Throat hurts. Feel like crying some more. This absolutely blows. Not sorry I went to the game, but oh this blows.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
