We met at the gas station we always do. I was earlier than her so when she pulled up I got out to see the boys. They were all smiles and we were very happy to see each other. W asked if I would mind taking little one in to change his diaper and I said no problem. S3 wanted to come too and I was happy to take them both in for a bathroom break. W started moving car seats over and bags for the boys.
After she gave them a kiss and hug I was just waiting by my car door and she came up to talk. She had said earlier that she "felt like death" and had been throwing up today. When she came up I said. I know you said you feel like death, you don't look like it tho. And just smiled.
She just smiled and told me she had got a breakfast sandwich somewhere and it didn't agree with her. That she had felt awful since. I listened and worked on my eye contact. We said goodbye and I said I hope you feel better. Before she got in her car I said. Oh, and thank you for driving to meet with the boys even though you aren't feeling well. I appreciate it. This was something she said was part of the problem with us. She didn't feel I appreciated her and the things she did. So that gave her a big smile and we got into our vehicles to leave.
I rolled down S3 window so he could wave and when I looked over at her she was crying into the wheel. I couldn't just leave, so I got out and asked her if she was ok. She said she was just tired. I said, I know you have worked a lot this week, I hope you can use these next few days to get some rest and feel better. Drive safe. I will let you know when we get home.
That was it. What struck me as odd was her crying. I know she said she was just tired and I get that she may be. It just seems like a strange time for that let down to be released. And the way she looked over at me almost seemed to trigger the crying. Maybe I'm just wanting to see something from nothing. If I am it's just to see how she is. Not in the hopes that anything is changing, I have pretty much accepted that I have to do my thing. I just am not sure why it seemed like a thing to me. Anyone else ever feel like they pick up other people's emotions? Like I said. I'm probably looking for something from nothing
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
