Kyrie, I am doing ok. Struggling with some anxiety this week. Also snowed in for most of the week so that didn't help- kids have been out of school for 9 days so far. I am busy GAL'ing and H has been calling or texting daily. No spewing, but not friendly either. Just neutral. I feel the gap is widening, which is probably why I am experiencing anxiety.
The relief of not being spewed at, or even the threat of being spewed at is indescribable. I can just be myself, can laugh at stupid jokes, can be silly with the kids, can just "be" without the fear of being under attack.
I do not miss him. At all. That doesn't mean I have given up. I want him back, and I want to reconcile, but I do not miss him the way he is now.
