11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
Oh cr@p. I just stalked sow's calendar. We're all on Outlook and I can see when she's busy. It looks like she's out the same days W is out in early March. I know there are countless possible explanations, but it's making me sick. It's when there is an out of town event we always went to together. I hope I'm wrong. And this is why you all tell us not to do these things, I know that.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
Oh cr@p. I just stalked sow's calendar. We're all on Outlook and I can see when she's busy. It looks like she's out the same days W is out in early March. I know there are countless possible explanations, but it's making me sick. It's when there is an out of town event we always went to together. I hope I'm wrong. And this is why you all tell us not to do these things, I know that.
Damn. Sorry NYGal. You may get a slap on the wrist for it but since you can't UN-know or UN-see it now (((NYG))) because I know it hurts.
Rain (moi): 40 Ex Fiance: 39 3 kids On/off again EA & PA Last BD by ow 12/15 Moved kids and myself back into our own place: 12/15
Note to self: Remember this truism - In the absence of information, we make up stuff.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
No W sighting at the end of the work day, but she called. With another trivial house question. I wish I hadn't answered. I won't hear from her all weekend. That's how it goes. Then maybe another call or visit on Monday. This is so hard. I want to ask her WTH? What is happening? Are you still with OW? Are you thinking of me? Are you wishing we were together? Or not? WTH?? Are you working on yourself??? WHY did this have to happen? I really don't look forward to weekends. Oh well, time to go home and get dressed for my GAL night. Basketball game. Swim fitness and a hike tomorrow. Dinner and movie with a friend. Uh oh, nothing yet for Sunday day. That's when I get depressed. I want to call her so bad, but there's nothing really that I can say. augghhh.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
Walked into the arena, decided to do a loop on the concourse. There was the sow. We passed each other. Caught each other's eye. She looked like sh!t. I swear, she did not look good. Then my friend and I stopped and we're looking over the arena, and up behind me comes W. She pats me on the shoulder and continues walking. Friend and I head back around, and there is sow sitting high up in all her ugly a$$ glory. Frizzy mouse brown hair. I swear, Wonka, I was rocking the leather jacket, cool scarf, black boots, curly hair, stylin'. So I go down the aisle, catch sow's eye and glare, and she actually tries a little wave. I kept on, right down to court side and sat with friends in chairs right on the floor. ( I still have my 'family of athletic department staff pass'.) Hugged friends, laughed, like I owned the place. W is sitting up in the stands opposite me. Sow is who knows where. I never saw her again. She may have left. Game was awful. AND I was self- conscious the whole time. Friend and I left early, went out for a beer and we both cried over our lost loves. All in all, quite the pitiful evening actually. I sincerely hate this drama. I just want my old life back and I miss my W so much. Screamed profane words all the way home in my car. Throat hurts. Feel like crying some more. This absolutely blows. Not sorry I went to the game, but oh this blows.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
She tried to wave at you?!! Wth. Why would she do that. Does she think you want to be her friend?
And why were you feeling self conscious? You looked fabulous and were owning it on top of the fact that sow looked like a hot mess. (<<<that's probably my favorite part of your night btw)
I'm sorry the night ended with you guys crying. But Im glad you had each other.
(((((NYGal))))
You're doing great. Even if you can't see it.
Rain
Rain (moi): 40 Ex Fiance: 39 3 kids On/off again EA & PA Last BD by ow 12/15 Moved kids and myself back into our own place: 12/15
