Ugh. I'm so struggling with this.

I want to crawl in a hole and hibernate. My wife can have her 2 weeks of mourning for her OM, and then I can start to talk with her again. Every time I talk with her, my W reaches and takes what I've said to hurt her.

My safe words: Hello. Goodnight.

Anything else is construed to demean her, judge her, criticize her, put her down, make her feel bad.

Even asking her 'how was your day?' is met with anger. That I'm insinuating that I had a great day, and it's meant to put her down.

Ugh. This is sooo hard.

I'm committed to my beliefs. I believe we are better together than apart. I'm committed to my wife. Everything else - who knows.


M46, EXWW46
M15 T17
D20, S19, D13
M - Addiction since 1998
W EA/PA #1 2013/2014
W EA #2 June 2015...
BD 1 Big D talk 9/15
BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15
Served D 1/22/16
Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)