Thanks SciDad. I know that you're right. I'm just so afraid of loosing him in the process. I think it's that fear that keeps me from moving in any direction at all and just being stuck where I am. Afraid to let go. Afraid to no do anything. Just so afraid of making the wrong choice and messing up any chance of getting back together. I know I need to let go of that fear, I just don't know how to do that yet. I am a person that is very passive, easy going, always tries to fix things so everyone is happy.....and I hate change more than anything. So, to think of making huge changes in my life and relationship, and possibly loosing it, is just beyond scary for me. I know I can't be the only person on this forum that feels this way or that seems to be stuck like I am. I know this makes me sound like a weak person, but I'm actually not. It's just this one part of my life I can't seem to get a grasp on. Still trying. [/quote]
I am the SAME WAY.DON'T FEEL BAD. Its a struggle for me as well. I hate change..but I'm trying.Igo between doing 180 but then my separated husband seems to have pulled away and angry more since doing it so now I paranoid Im making us worse vs better. We will figure it out!
