Currently, when I am not over there making a fool out of myself and breaking my NC, I am trying to work on myself. I told the IC that I want to focus on fixing ME instead of taking about H which I can't control or fix. I am walking and have lost 40lbs. I was GALing pretty good, but the new AD that I'm taking is causing insomnia and I just can't seem to make myself get out of the house. Hoping that wears off soon! Yesterday I looked up classes at the gym I belong to. Again, just too tired to get out today to go to one, but hopefully soon.
That's about it. I don't know what else to do. My focus should be on me, I know...but, I still think about H all the time and don't think anything I'm doing is drawing him to me. The NC makes him miss me, but he isn't going to contact me and never sees me so how is that helping? This is pretty much what I do, just go around and around in my mind and come up with nothing. Would love some insight if you have some!!
M:45 H:48 M:11 No kids BD:Sept'15 EA:Confirmed 1wk later PA: Oct'15 12 '15 2 wk R Just kidding, H wants NC 12 '15 H back w/OW 4 '15 R &still working on it
