I'm going to give you some advice that I need to listen to as well. Don't worry about your H. Worry about you. It's not about what he is or isn't doing. It's about what you do to improve yourself. Every bad event gives us the opportunity to grow.
Yes, there is pain. Yes it is horrible. But you will get past it become stronger for it. Just take time to figure out what you can do for yourself. Initially just to escape, but eventually to work on potential areas of growth. None of us are perfect, and now is a beautiful time to grow.
Me-38 W-38; T-15 M-12; S10 and S6 BD - July 2016; EA confirmed; confronted Aug 2015 EA dissolved 12/2016
Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option - Maya Angelou