do nothing or what

[roist]

Yes Z I am sure that the resentment and pain do seep through.I am aware of this and block it as much as possible. I am usually calm, polite and light.

Recently I am trying to give her more space without being cold about it. Space and time. This is probably as much for me as her.

At least one evening per week I have either worked late or gone back to work after kids go to bed. I have gone out with friends. I have done sport with friends. And I do stuff alone with sons. Apart when sons involved she never asks anything or even mentions it. Other evenings I do paperwork or sport in our basement .

I am in the process of divorcing my couch! I am still available but not as much. But I am finished looking at BS on TV just to do something together
and I am finished sitting there in silence. To be fair she does break the silence but about stuff that doesn't develope. I am convinced she doesn't want to speak to me but there are the tiniest indications she might.

She is emotionally closed to me. She is job hunting but u don't even know if it is to compliment her part time job or to change it. Just goes to show where we are at.

Anyway getting sidetracked again but I guess I needed to let it out.