I understand deep down somewhere in your thoughts you try to figure this out. Guess what?.....you won't.
My EXW exactly the same. Lies untop of lies on top of deception. She left our kids(then, adults mostly now) but would spin her story to any one who would listen. My daughter especially would ask why she lies so much.
There is no answer to that. They just do and that's the way it is.
Just keep moving forward. Life on the other side of this once you make that choice 100% to move on with your life makes all the difference.
I at one time would have taken my EXW back. That is not the case today. I have a wonderful life. Great relationships with our kids(adult) and I am a whole lot wiser in setting boundaries in life which allows me to live a more mature, wisdom filled life and I think it makes a huge difference. I would describe it as "living free within yourself". Kinda weird but kinda not.
I respect the way you carry yourself but deep down I think you already know that about yourself.
